Open Source Human Project

Today is my birthday. I'm not broadcasting it anywhere but here, and I know at this time that I am the only one in the room. I've had thirty-eight trips around the sun and life is good. I'm a very fortunate person.  Some people take the day off when their birthday lands on a workday. I am blessed with an enjoyable job and there feeling of wanderlust as I start my day. I am fortunate to have a job that affords me some time to journal. Today is my birthday. My spouse left a beautiful hand-made coffee mug with a lovely note for me to find as she snoozed peacefully. A good way to start the day. My mother, the same early morning sort as myself, had already sent me a sunny text message wishing me a wonderful day. Today is a day to enjoy. I will remain humble and honest to myself and those around me. In that stream of honesty I will admit... being who I want to be has been hard. I do not want to be someone who leans on vices or comforts. I am a fortunate person, and in my heart, m...

Alright already. There is a pattern and I am seeing that the key missing ingredient is what I've always been lacking in my life. Discipline. Short post today. I need to apply this before I can hope to go forward.

It would be easy for me to celebrate what I have achieved, though I make no excuses for my short-comings. It takes hard work to achieve goals when you set them high. That said, I am flipping the script today. Waking up earlier will make things easier. Getting to bed earlier will make waking up earlier easier. That is the key to balancing my schedule. Yesterday I engaged in an activity that I feel is very necessary and long overdue. Plugging my daily life into a calendar is a humbling practice. It is honest. It really demonstrates just how much 'free time' one has. In truth, when I added up all the time I need to spend on work, commute, and daily routine tasks, I was quite shocked how little time I actually have for anything beyond my daily commitments. It turns out, that I really only have two hours between working and parenting, and those two hours are gobbled up by the kids. This is a good thing. It is honest. The truth is a good thing. While I could be down and frustrated wi...